Thoughts by a Human…

Thoughts by a Human…

It has been one of those weeks…changes have been happening, positive and negative. Contemplating life. And having no job, more time, results in lots of thoughts. This is my space of the internet and I would like to share those thoughts. Please share yours or share this!

So here are some thoughts by a human (me)…

 

Human existence is amazing. So much can happen to one human being on this planet. And there have been so many human lives, each of them unique. Every view of the world is unique and beautiful in its own right. Every comprehension of human life, what was before and what is after is unique. Maybe that’s why it is so hard to find the truth. Is there one certain truth to life? Or just our own unique truths? How you want to exist in the world and possibly the next (if you believe in that of course!)

Maybe that’s why I, personally, don’t believe in coincidences? Because every moment, person, experience, and emotion I have felt has shaped me, very uniquely, to the human being I am. And I wouldn’t change it. I can’t imagine a different self, because what has happened to me, happened. Again I wouldn’t change that.

It’s amazing how much our perspective of time changes through our lives. As a child there is so much time. A year is a large portion of our lifetime. Our natural existence fills the time. As we grow older priorities and responsibilities fill our time. We manipulate our time to alter the way we exist. We can change the direction of our lives with a single choice. We can change the direction of life to find a existence that we love and feel fulfilled in. What power, yet we are still at the whims of time, health, the Earth, those we love and hate, societal expectations, personal expectations, emotions… the list goes on and on.

I think our own emotions are the most difficult part of life. We are at their mercy. They are constantly changing. We can’t anticipate or control them. Sometimes they appear so strongly that we become consumed, forever changed by them. They are the one thing that we can’t put into words. The deepest parts of our souls, I believe, reveal themselves through our feelings. To others in our lives, they can never be fully justified or even proven.

So there is nothing wrong with dictating our lives based on our feelings, emotions, or a feeling we get from something or someone. They may lead to mistakes or even better, triumphs.

Every emotion is a success of the human experience. It means we are here and alive. Even with the darkest and most lonely ones.

We do, and should, try our best to respect ourselves – our “souls”, whatever that means to you, and our emotions. We should also respect others. We are all the same. Existing together, uniquely. No moment of time and space is the same from before or after that moment. It’s okay to clutch to some of those moments and to let go of others. But we should never try to only in one, single, moment. Always moving forward.

It’s okay to cry or jump for joy. It’s okay to share your failures and triumphs. It’s okay to view the world and all that is holds differently from those around you. As long as respect and love are given. That is what is at the core of kindness and morals. All are valued, important, worth, loved, respected – no matter where they are in their experience.

We are all human.

Thanks for the Adventure life. And thoughts.

Update…Update…

Update…Update…

What a crazy thing to have this little website for years in my back pocket. What a crazy idea, to want to record my thoughts and feelings for the world on this thing called the internet. Yet, I find myself constantly seeking out the people who are doing the same.

I have experienced quite a bit of fear and anxiety concerning this little blog. I have started and restarted it multiple times on multiple platforms. Here I am again…

Life has changed quite a bit since the first, and only post, was published.

I finished my Undergraduate degree by dragging myself to the finish line. I experienced some heartaches, pain and fear. I experienced mental illness. I experienced incredible trips around the world. I experienced an immense amount of joy and love.

I am starting a new chapter…I am moving from Utah back to the land of the sun: California. I am planning more and more trips. I am probably going to meet some new people. I am probably going to experience some more crazy things. I am probably going to experience more fear and pain. But I am ready.

So you get ready for some thoughts of mine. Get ready for some stories. Current and past. Get ready for some quirks, some love, and some joy. Get ready for some adventures.

I am not going to guarantee a perfect product in this crazy little blog. Just me. Or more accurately, me in that very moment. So take it or leave it. Share it to others, relate to it, enjoy it, or simply forget about it.

So here’s to the adventure. Again. Starting today May 16, 2019.

*photo by As You Like It Photography 

 

The Start of the Adventure

*written May 26, 2013*

Woo first post!!

This is the week of all new beginnings and endings. High School Graduation, goodbyes, missionary farewells…

I have always wanted to have a blog, but lets be honest…I have never had the life interesting enough to publish among all the other blogs on the internet. I was always on the verge of creating one but as always was too chicken to do it. Now you ask. Why did I decide to change? Why did I take on the challenge of, in a essence, “journal” my life for others to see? Well a best friend of mine wrote a beautiful letter to me for my high school graduation and the last line of it said, “Thanks for the adventure. Now go have one of your own.”

These two sentences, among all the other large amounts of advice I have received within the past two weeks, is what hit me with the most force and even realization. “I’m done with high school!!” High school was difficult yes but it was safe. I had close friends and family to fall back on, always. I was also very concerned with making others content and happy. Their adventure was more important. I still want to make sure that is a priority in my life, but now I need to make sure I get some attention too. If you know what I mean… College will be a HUGE adventure that I’m excited to endeavor on, yet also TERRIFIED to start. (gotta love Caps)  Anyways, I know, and am kinda scared, to discover myself more deeply. I am scared of losing old friends and even making new. I am scared that what I think I should be, and how my life should be like will not be true. I am scared of the “big, bad, world” All in all it will be my own personal adventure, whether I like it or not. And I want to make sure that I record and remember the ups and downs of it.

Oh I am excited!! I am excited to look back as time continues and I (hopefully) continue writing. It will be an adventure.

*November 13, 2017*

As I finished high school and began college I started a blog, more of a journal. I loved it. I was able to document little moments that contributed to my little adventure of discovering myself and exploring my late teens and early 20s. Then as some would say, “Life happened.” I slowly stopped recording my thoughts and memories.

Now as I finish college and begin my life I want to start again the journey of recording my thoughts, memories, and adventures. This time with the intention of telling my story to others and sharing a glimpse into my  life. I truly believe that everyone is unique and therefore their journey’s are unique. Yet, we always look to see if we can find someone who is experiencing something similar, or who feels something similar. We look to see if we can find a connection or a story to help us along our journey. I know I do.

I want to share these moments. I want to share my journey of reaching my dreams. I want to share my love for music and for people. I want to share some happiness as well as honesty of what it feels to be human into this world.

Please take a chance on my story and in return I would love to hear yours. This life that we have is truly an adventure. And all I can say to the people, the opportunities, the sadness, the stress, the happiness that have come, and will continue to me, “Thanks for the Adventure…”

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